I thought it would be easier..

the 2nd time around....I knew going in that having two was going to be challenging and I was expecting that and was not let down! It is tough....but what I thought would be easier was doing it again...I mean I just did this a little over 2 years ago, shouldn't I know how to handle things? You'd think? But for some reason, I blocked most everything out from Shelby. I know she was fussy, but was she this fussy? How did I comfort her? Was she this gassy? What did I give her? You'd think I would've retained some of it....don't get me wrong, I love Samantha to pieces, but this is rough...she has a couple of real fussy periods per day...and did I mention she is a spitter upper....I mean TONS...I go through tons of bibs and burp clothes every day. Most of the time it is just a little, but sometimes, it is projectile...watch out! I don't know how to handle this, Shelby didn't spit up alot. I keep worrying about her weight so I keep going up to visit Aunt Peggy at the hospital to do a weight check, but she is gaining...so she is keeping something down.....we went through a week or so where she didn't like the bouncy, swing, nothing...but my arms....thankfully she is growing out of that.
I am lucky though (and am knocking on wood all around me as I write this)...she is sleeping pretty good at night. I top her off right before I go to bed around 10-10:30 and she usually sleeps until 2:30-3:00...I feed her and then she goes down until 6:30ish and it is Shelby who usually wakes everyone up at this point....
I have 3 weeks of maternity leave left and am scared stiff about going back to work and trying to get into the routine of having two.
Shelby is getting better around her...she likes to try to give her the binky or swing her swing or "help"....she is a great big sister but is pretty demanding of my time as well....
No point to this post other than to say I'm exhausted and thought I would've retained a little more knowledge from the first time around!